You heard me. I’m done. I can’t take it anymore. I should have stayed in that psych ward and just rotted. Nobody cares that I’m suffering. Nobody cares that I see myself jumping off buildings every time I close my eyes. Nobody cares that I’m alone and suffocating on the nothingness of it all. I can’t breath anymore in this world. I’m choking on the levels of people who do not want to help me.
My friends are just there to whine about how much their lives suck and wish it was all sunshine and roses and everyone had a job that didn’t suck. I just want a reason to be alive and you act selfishly. You went and got laid instead of seeing that I was suffering! I gave up so much time I could have spent doing something important for school so I could be around you again and you just left me! WHY WOULD YOU LEAVE ME LIKE THAT?!
All I wanted was to be happy and I couldn’t even have that. I spent my whole weekend crying in the corner where nobody could see me so that it wouldn’t ruin everyone else's day. That’s the friend I am and I’m sorry I cared so much! You left me alone to dream of choking on pills and liquor. You left me to cry in a room full of happy people and glow sticks. I cried so much and you never noticed.
I should hate you, but I can’t. Because I’m not that kind of person. So I’m going to just lay in bed and cry because in my mind all this was my fault.